VENTING

Okay so this is really shallow, poor picked on me, and at times dare I say bitchy but I need to vent.

I feel there are certain people in our life's that just seem to always forget about us. People that should want us around, but aren't impressed with what we have therefore don't need us. Don't get me wrong, we are spoiled with people that love and care for us deeply. There is just some that don't really care, or if they do it sure doesn't feel that way.

So many times we find out things after the fact or little to late. I am so fed up with it. I know it is okay to get my feeling hurt but the anger I feel is not okay. I am constantly wondering what did I do wrong to make them not like me. Why am I not included in things. Why are my kids left out. Why is Jeron always the last to know. I can handle the me part, and even the Jeron part, but my kids, that always sends me over the edge. Again my kids are being left out and nobody even told us that kids were included. I just feel that if you include one kid you should include all kids. If you can't include all kids don't include your "favorite".

I know I am not giving enough details about this...for a reason though. I will ask Jeron all the time what have I done. I know for a fact these people don't get me at all. I think they think I am self righteous and that I think I am Practically Perfect in every way. This one stings a lot. I don't know why I give off that persona. I certainly don't feel that way. If you could here the things I think about myself I promise it isn't PPIEW. To tell you the truth though I am totally starting to not care at all what they think of me. Just the fact that my kids are going to get crushed by this one makes me livid.

I just wish that when you are suppose to include someone you would. I think that all to often we forget about others feeling. We don't look at the whole picture. I am still Megan. Even though I have four kids and a husband I can still be me. I hate the excuse we didn't invite you because we knew it would be hard to leave the kids. COME ON! We all can leave our kids once in a while. I guess what bugs me even more is when these people get jealous of the people that we are close to. The reason we are closer is because they include us in EVERYTHING! Please know that I am grateful everyday for the ones that care. We may not have a lot of money or can go on exotic trips but they see us, know who we are and love us simply because of who we are.

Really it just comes down to the pure fact that it hurts and it hurts bad. I am told often "WHY do you care?" I know I should really try not to but I do. I am very sensitive when people don't like me. I am even more sensitive when because of me they aren't close to my kids. I hope that I have never made anyone feel like this. It truly sucks. I can usually get over things but sometimes it stings so much I just want to wash my hands of people like this. I know that that isn't right though. So I guess I will have to turn the other cheek again. Tell me again how many times do I have to do that?



If you are reading this it probably means you are not one of the people I am talking about,because it shows you actually care.