a thAnKfuL {H}eArT

I am thankful this year for so many things.  We have been through a tough couple of years.  This year seemed to be the hardest one knowing what was coming and wondering how we would face it.  I often wondered how things were going to be okay.  I started to really depend on my Savior for strength.  I knew that my faith needed to be fully with my Father in Heaven.   I had been really trying to do so much on my own and not really understanding that I could just knock and have it open unto me.  Our trials did not go away in any sense of the imagination.  The thing that changed for me was a peace that  I could face what came no matter what.  I will always have my faith, and I will always have my family.  Nothing else in this life matters.  My theme song for a while has been "Lord, I Would Follow Thee."  There is a line that says "Finding strength beyond my own." It has helped me get through some rough patches.  I don't have a crystal ball, I can't see the future, and sometimes I really struggle not knowing what is coming.  This is when I turn to my Father in Heaven and I know He has the strength that I lack so greatly.  I am such a worrier and so this has proved to be a trial that focused right in on that very thing.  I don't know what happened but I decided that this time I couldn't do it on my own.  I would need to find a strength that was better than mine.  I prayed, and prayed, and did something I don't think I have ever done, I TRUSTED...This along with my Savior's gentle love for me helped me have a knowledge that things don't always go the way we want but we can still handle them.  I still get sad, I still worry, but in my dark moments I now can see a strength that is not my own.  I pull with all my might to get to that strength and then my worry, fear, frustration seems to go and I am left saying "come what may."  All that really matters I have with me and always will.  The knowledge that no matter what I will ALWAYS have my relationship with my Father in Heaven, my Savior, and my family is what gets me through it all.  So, like always this year I am truly thankful for my knowledge of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Ghost.

I kind of touched on this in my first one but I am so thankful for my FAMILY!  They are my life.  There isn't one moment that goes by that I am not so thankful for them.  Okay, maybe one moment here and there but for the most part I am ALWAYS thankful for them.  I bragged about my kids already so you can refer to that post.  Now it is Jeron's turn.  I think we have been through a lot together.  In the past 12 years we have battled a lot of things that have really been a lot for a marriage to take.  In fact in one year we had 3 things happen that are the leading cause of divorce.  We made it through that.  We seem to be growing in tune with each other more and more lately.  I love him.  I married a very loving, giving, and understanding man.  He has such a good heart and I am so thankful that I get to always have him as mine.  I am so thankful that he gets up every day and  goes to work to take care of all of us moochers.  He doesn't have many perks to show for all that he does because he gives it all to us.  He is very selfless.  I am lucky to have a man that makes me laugh.  He is very funny and we have the same humor.  I like that we are so much a like yet so very different.  He is the biggest pest a girl can find.  Holy cow does he drive me crazy sometimes.  He tells me all the time this is how he shows love..I then beg him to not love me so much.  He has been a strength to me in so many ways and I am truly thankful for him and our beautiful little family.

My parents, Jeron's parents, my siblings their spouses, and my in-laws make my world a little brighter. I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life. I could list so many things that each of them have done to make my year better but this would be entirely too long.  So just know that we love you and are so grateful for you.  

 I am so thankful for the beautiful scenery around me.  Yesterday I heard it refereed to as a set design for a movie.  We have one of the best back drops around.  I look at the mountains and just marvel and their beauty.  This hillside is one of my favorite places.  When ever we pass it I always wonder what it would be like to run up it.  I was thrilled when Emma asked if she could.  We pulled over and all the older kids ran up the hill.  It made my heart happy. 

I am thankful I was raised a UTE fan.  It is so much fun to have a team that you really love and cheer your guts out for them.  Win or lose I love my Utes!  See I told you I have great parents.  They taught me in my youth to love this team and it has brought me a lot of joy over the years.

 After my trip to DC I left feeling a little upset with our great country.  That is a weird thing to say about a trip to DC, I know but there was some things that just irritated me.  So when I got home I studied these things out.  Discussed it with many and now I am fully back on board with AMERICA!  I love this great nation.  I love that we fight to have freedom.  I love that we can have a voice.  I voted a few weeks back and there is something about being able to vote that make me feel that I am being heard.  I am thankful that I am an American. 

 I am so thankful for PBK!  I mean look at this picture.  I could just go sit in that room forever.  I tell people that this is what my heaven will look like.  I walk into PBK and just the smell makes my heart happy.  Plus it has helped inspire me to create.  LOVE IT!

 I love getting new recipes and trying them out.  If they are good they make it on my blog.  If they are not my family has to suffer through a night of hard to swallow food.  This has become a new passion of mine and I love it. 

 I love to blog.  I use to keep the best journals.  Then I got married and had kids and I couldn't find the time to keep one.  Now, with blogging I am back on track.  3 years of journal entries about my family and what we do.   I even get to do the fun things like put in pictures.  That is why I loved my journals they were so fun to just open up and look at.  With blogging I feel the same way. 

 I shouldn't be thankful for this but come noon today I will be so grateful that I can open my fridge and pour me a nice tall glass of delicious addiction.  Mmmmmm

 Speaking of Addiction...I love me some lotion.  Recently I have really had to try and settle this one down.  One of my kids is so addicted to it that I am now trying to watch how much I use.  I am going through a lot less these days but I still love the stuff.  I put a little squirt on my hands and all is well with the world. 

I am so thankful for great friends.  I love the ladies in my life that make my heart smile.  I can tell them anything and know that my feeling are safe.  It has been fun making new friends also.  Thank you for bringing some humor and silliness into my life. 

 I am thankful that Jeron and I got to take our first kid free trip this year.  We headed to our Nations Capital and had a blast.  We loved every minute of our trip and have been itching to go on one again. 

 I am grateful for the newest edition to the Meads family.   I can't even tell you have much I love being an Auntie to my sweet little Lucy.  I just love this little squishy pants so much.  She is darling!  I hope we are always close and that she knows that I just LOVE her. 

 I am thankful for "Pig Rocks" and all the other adorable things that Elsie says.  She says the cutest things and each day I just die laughing at something she has just said.  I love the age of two and how everything is so new. 

I am thankful for crafting and being creative.  I love to create something from nothing.  I wish I had more talent so that I could do more but it still brings me joy.  

 I am thankful everyday for my phone.  My dad and mom keep me in the modern world with this.  I love it!  I love my apps., my ability to email right there, I can even tell you if I am going to have PMS that day.  Love the phone.  Yes, I am spoiled. 

 I love Thomas Jefferson.  I am thankful to him for his brilliant brain.  That he used it to do good.  After learning about him this year I am just so impressed with all he did.  He even wrote his own bible.  He just never stopped.  He was a good person.  I read the accounts of his grandchildren and they just loved him. It made me love him more. 

I love my new hobbie.  I am not good at it but it is a lot of fun for me.  I have taken my first set of family pictures, and wedding pictures.  Even though it freaks the crap out of me I love it.  I can't wait to be able to find the time to learn more about the camera so I can use it better. 

There is so much to be grateful for and on Thanksgiving I love that we express what those things are.  I could go on an on about all that I am thankful for.  I just hope that each of us will take the time to remember all that we have been giving and remember those that don't have all that we have.  I hope this year I can focus more on what I have not what I don't.  Last, but certainly not least, I am so thankful for YOU!

{Our} kids...bragging rights!

I will start by telling you I hate brag letters.  You know the ones people send out at the end of the year listing all the things that their family has done throughout the year, and how wonderful they all are.  Please keep sending them to me though because what else will I have to make fun of.  I find it funny that as much as I hate those letters I am about to do one.  I say all the time that this is my journal but I never just talk about my kids.  So I am going to brag for a minute.

I was just sitting here thinking how much our kids are all so different.  They come to the exact same parents and yet they are so incredibly different.  I love how unique each of them are.  I don't just sit and reflect very often but I find myself doing that tonight.  We have been so blessed.  Our four kids melt my heart on a daily basis.  They each bring something different to this family that makes our family stronger.

JJ is so smart it is crazy.  He is clever.  He thinks of things is such a different way than most people do.  This is why I think some day he will change the world.  He can create the most awesome things.  His mind is always working.  He never stops...ever!  He literally is smarter than me by leaps and bounds.  He is just so handsome with his brown eyes and copper top.  He comes up with the craziest ideas and if I was more fun we would do them, but I am not so we don't.  He is the sweetest boy.  He is always willing to help others out.  Every teacher (school or church) he has ever had tells me what a privilege it is to have him in their class.  I know it is because he is such a helper to them, he wants to learn, and he listens.  He is very mature for his age except when he is not.  He is a tease like no other.  He teases all of us to the point that we want to scream.  When we do scream this just fuels his fire.  He does well to be a brother of all sisters.  He doesn't complain when we rent the Barbie movie.  He just goes with the flow.  I don't think I have given him enough credit for what he does put up with.  His sisters are lucky to have him.  He loves me.  Even though there are times I think I am the worst mom ever, he still loves me.  He loves to wrestle with his dad and tease him in a way that only boys can.  He loves his grandparents like crazy.  He always wants to call Papa and tell him about what he made or wants to make, and is always coming up with endless project that he could do with him.  He loves to tell Mama about his day and he knows she will really listen to him.  He loves to sit on Grandma Jan's lap and have her tickle his back.  He loves that Grandpa Gene shows interest in his hobbies, and shows him new ones.  He loves to tease his Grandpa John and make fun of him for pinching his ears. JJ is such a great kid.  He really enjoys learning about Christ and his gospel.  He is starting to think about things on a deeper level.  We can have cool discussions about life now.  Oh, did I mention he reads novels like 400 page novels in a couple of days.  Like I said the kid is wicked smart.

Emma is our little soft spoken, mild mannered, sweetheart.  She is always my biggest helper.  She is johnny on the spot when it comes to helping with Ellie.  She is the best thing that has happened to Ellie.  Emma helps her do her homework.  I didn't even have to ask, she just does it.  She is a perfectionist.  Where she gets this from...I don't know (mama)  She gets extremely nervous the day before a test because she is worried she will do bad.  If 100% is bad than she did bad.  She never, ever misses a word on her spelling tests.  She does not really come from me I guess.  I can't spell worth a lick.  She can memorize like nobody's business.She is learning to love to read and is almost keeping up with her brother with how much she reads.  She is also a little crazy about her math.  She was so worried that she would be passed up by all the other kids when they got times tables memorized.  She was one of the first to finish.  Even when she was on 9's she was worried that she was getting behind.  She is such a great sister.  She will play with Ellie for hours and hours.  She has the cutest laugh.  But once you get this girl going she can't stop.  She is hilarious.  When we play games she is so competitive but such a poor loser.  She loves to win so much that she can't handle losing.  She still wants to be a little girl but is starting to grow up.  This makes me sad and excited all at the same time.  Emma is someone that truly wants to be a good person.  She is so sad if someone is mad at her.  She hates to hurt feelings and feels bad when she does.  She gets her heart broken a little too easily.  I sure hope it gets tougher.  She is starting to want to do her own hair.  Yikes, that is my favorite time.  She loves her family.  I think we are going to be great friends which makes me happy.  I hope this stays true during the teenage years.  She loves her daddy.  It is cute to watch her tell him things.  I can see that she really loves his opinion.  Again she loves her grandparents as well.  She is always so excited to see them and her love for them is so genuine.  She has the prettiest smile I have ever seen.  So perfectly pink.  She loves to go to church.  She is understanding so much more and starting to have answers to the tough questions.  She says the sweetest things to me all the time. 

Ellie, where do I begin.  I really could just some it up in a few lines or write a novel.  She is an ANGEL!  That is how I could sum it up.  She LOVES school.  She gets so excited when she sees the school and when she runs in my heart smiles.  She is starting to talk a little bit more.  She said "Help you mom?" the other day and I about passed out.  She is starting to make sense of things and point out things to me.  She is funny.  She has just started to really laugh in the last couple of months.  She has always laughed but now she is laughing with more feeling in it.  She loves to escape into her Barbie world.  She gets them all out and lines them up and has them all talk to each other.  I often wonder if this is because she doesn't really have friends so this is who she shares her life with.  She really does love her Barbie time.   She HATES change.  She is cranky when I tell her to get in the bath, cranky when I tell her to get out of the bath, go to school, come home from school, you see the patten.  It makes me laugh...some days.  She is starting to say the prayer at home on her own.  Even though I have no clue what is being said I can feel the spirit.  She can sing songs now, and I understand what she is saying.  She is the most thoughtful little lady, unless it involves Boo and then she is maybe not so thoughtful.  She is starting to really like to cuddle with me.  I love this.  She loves to eat carbohydrates.  This makes me crazy.  I want to feed her good food but she only wants crackers, chips, breads.  Oh, that girl.  She has the prettiest hair color ever.  I just wish she had more of it.  She get so excited when daddy gets home.  Cutest thing.  She is trying so much more now on her own.  She is getting sneaky.  She stole Emma's cookie the other day, and a shirt from the school book fair.  We might have to watch this one.  She loves everyone that she meets.  She teaches me more than most people.  She is amazing when it comes to knowing when someone needs a hug.  I love to be a witness to the many things that she does, and the hearts that she touches.

Elsie makes me laugh.  Not just laugh but belly laugh.  She is so clever and witty.  She is in love with herself.  I wish I could bottle that and sell it.  She tells me all the time that she is pretty.  She is a spitfire.  Holy cow, that girl is on one all the time.  She is so much fun though.  She changes her clothes about every 30 minutes.  It makes for a ton of laundry.  She is finally (knock on wood) potty trained.  I thought that would never happen.  She loves to swim.  She asks me on a regular basis when we are going to the pool.  She loves to shop.  She wants to always go to the store with me.  It makes me laugh.  I am pretty sure she is going to be a fashion designer and everyone will want an Elsie original.  She is 100% girl.  There isn't anyone I know that has a girl like her.  She literally has to wear a dress everyday and it has to be twirl worthy.  She is so clever.  She can run my iphone better than I can.  She loves to sing songs.  She sings "I love to see the Temple" all the time.  She sicks it in such a high note you can't help but giggle a little.  She has learned the alphabet song and counting to 10 on her own.  She didn't learn it from me.  She is to smart.  She loves to get into makeup.  She almost always has some lipstick in her hand and is applying it like crazy.  She wants me to do her hair.  She loves to twirl my hair.  It drives me crazy sometimes, but when we went on our vacation I kind of missed it.  She has the biggest most beautiful brown eyes.  They can melt my heart.  In fact she is spoiled because all she has to do is look at me with  those eyes and wham, I give in. She loves her binkie.  I am not sure we will ever break her of it.  I don't know if I care.  She lights up my life and I am so glad we have our forth child.  She just might be my favorite Elsie in the world. 

I feel that I have been blessed to have such amazingly awesome kids.  I want more than anything that they will be happy.  Happiness comes from knowing who you are and where you come from.  They already get it so much more than I did at their age.  I just hope I don't mess them up too much.  They came pretty awesome.  Now, I just hope you know i could write just as much about what drives me crazy but I wanted to focus on how much they make my heart happy.  I love you kids.

{Parent}hood

If you only like posts about how perfect my life is then don't read this. 

I have been watching the show "Parenthood" lately.  Every single time I have watched it I cry.  I don't just mean the little tear trickle but a full on sob my eyes out cry.  There is a family on the show that has a child with Asperger Syndrome.  It seems like every story line that they use relates to our family and what we face with Ellie.  Recently Ellie had a similar situation happen that came up on tonight's show.  Granted they were different it a lot of ways but there was a scene of the husband and wife talking in bed about what had happened to their son that just tore my heart out.  He wasn't invited to a party...

You might think...So?

I know that just seems trivial.  There will be another party, another thing he will be invited to but that is just it.  There won't be another party.  And yes, these special needs kids, they know.

In the show the mother approached the mother of the child that didn't invite her son to find out why?  I thought how hard that would be.  Then she made a statement that hit home.  (Both of the kids have Asperger Syndrome so they could relate to each other).  What she said is "Hasn't there been a time when you have gone crazy for your child, and called somebody out when you never would have before."

Well I never did that and still it bothers me that...

I know that I should be able to just get over it but it has truly bothered me for months. I know not every kid gets invited to the parties but this one happened to be one that SHOCKED me. I have never spoken to the parents about their reasons so I couldn't tell you why they chose not to invite her. The hardest part is I truly LOVE this family, yet every time I see them, laugh with them, hang out with them, I leave and all the sudden it comes back to me. They didn't invite Ellie. I don't want to feel like that but I do.  Jeron has felt the same way.  Both of us were kind of in shock.  Both of us have on multiple times discussed this to see if we could figure out the reason.  Both of us got hurt. 

I guess the thing that is hardest is they have had Ellie in their home. She has played with their kids, so why exclude her now. I know Ellie will never know this happened to her, because I will never tell her. I just don't get why it had to happen. Ellie doesn't have a single friend her age that calls her or does anything to hang out with her. I know she will never be the friend of choice but it hurts. JJ, Emma, and even Elsie now get calls from friends...not Ellie. It eats at me but what do I do? I can't really say "hey you, can your child please make special arrangements to play with my daughter." We have tried to have friends come over and they do sometimes, but they NEVER call her.

I just have to keep reminding myself that school is like a huge play date for Ellie. She loves the friends that she has at school. They really have been a great group of kids for her. I will hold onto that. I know this is something I need to work out and in time I will. I just hurt for her. Ellie probably doesn't really care..like I do, but she does care. She gets so excited when she gets asked to play. She has an amazing BIG sister that lets Ellie play with her and her friends. Emma's friends are great to let ELlie tag along. I love those girls for that. Sometimes they even have Ellie come with them to their homes when Emma comes.

I try to focus on the good but every once in a while like tonight when they talk about the very thing that is bothering me on a show it just makes all those raw emotions come back up. The hurt has not gone away it is just buried down in me. I can get over a lot of things but when it comes to my kids it is just a lot harder to move past it. I will keep trying to work on this issue.  I know that I have a place to lay my burdens.  I just need to trust that I can.  Like I said earlier, we love this family, so I will find a way to move past this.  I just don't think I am as brave as the mom in the show.  I can't ask why Ellie wasn't invited because I am afraid of the answer. hmmm.....

GNO {Cousin} Style

We had our semi-annual GNO with the Monson girls. 

It was another success if I do say so myself, and hey I am typing this so I do. 

I love the way that we can all just talk.  It is nice to not feel censored like you do with other people.

I feel like they would love me no matter what.

We get a little photo happy when we get together because we don't get together enough.

And most of the time we are the one taking the pics so it is nice when we get to be the one in the pic.

Okay, let's face it I love a pic of myself and so does my HOTTIE of a cousin Abi.

This time a few of the little scragglers had to come along and we loved it.

Even a few moms came and we still had a blast.  

Marilee and Marj you can still rock it with the young ones.  hahaha

I was glad that Lulu came because really, how stinken' cute is she!

Hands down my favorite pics of myself are always the ones were I am pulling a face.

This one is priceless because it just shows how much Abi adores me and looks up to me.  (hehehehehe)

We talked about men, kids, jobs, life, and just had a nice time.  

There is something to say about women.

Of course we are the sexier sex, but we just get each other.

We have our weird family quirks, and that shows when we get together.

We all have a little cRaZy in us, but that is what makes us so great.

These three just make my heart happy.

I have withdrawals when I don't talk to them at least every other day.

I guess that makes them as special as diet coke.  

I am cracking myself up!

Thanks for a great night.  We will have to do it again.  SOON!

So you know how I told you that Abi and I love pictures, I was not kidding.

The only problem is that she went before me and was rockin' that hot bod of hers

So when it came my turn the only thing I could think is YIKES! and the pictures show it.

but hey they are pics of me so I had to post them...right?

The one with the sexy bedroom eyes if my favorite.  Oh, wait...that isn't sexy that is what I look like when I yawn.  NICE!  Explains a lot about my life. 

Guess who is in town

Maren and Lucy.   Wahoo!!  Okay, we love Maren but Lucy got all the pics.  Lucy has grown so much since we last saw her.  I miss her so much when we are apart.  Then I see her I can't imagine how we ever spend time apart.  She is such a doll.  She is walking like crazy.  Smarty!  She is only about four inches shorter than Elsie.  It is hilarious.  Before they came I told Ellie that Lucy would be here when she got home from school.  Ellie put her arms up like an airplane and said Yeah?  IT was so cute.  Elsie would run to the window couple of minutes to see if they were here yet.  When they got here Elsie was a little shy and then she warmed right up.  Elsie tried to hold Lucy, but Lucy clearly is to big for her.  She followed Lucy all around the house.  She just loves her cousin.  The older kids came home and JJ and Emma couldn't get enough of her. 

After they left Elsie called daddy to tell him all about it.  She said "Dad, Lucy can walk.  I am so proud of her."  It was the cutest thing.  Then she talked to Jeron for about 5 minutes about Lucy.  Do you think she loves Lucy?  I don't know??  I can't wait to have a blast with Maren and Lucy.  Let the week begin.

Elsie and her {B}est Friend

I caught these two just talking by the window and they were so interested in what the other had to say. It was really sweet.

They were so cute.  They wanted to dance and have me take pictures.  They would dance and then say "Let me see"  It was so fun. 

Elsie has hit that stage where she wants to have friends.  It has been a while since we have had friend play-dates.  I have forgotten all of this and it is fun to watch them just enjoy each other.  Paige is such a sweetheart and Elsie always is excited to see her.  Elsie seriously asks to play with Paige every day.  It is so cute.

Stranger Danger

Emma went over to her friend Riley's house the other day.  When she knocked on the door they were not home. 

Not much of a story right.

The conversation when she got home went something like this.

Emma:  "Riley wasn't home"
Mom:  "Okay"
Emma:  "Riley wasn't home".
This time I hear the panic in her voice.
Mom:  "Honey, are you okay?"
Emma:  "Riley, wasn't home.".
I can tell she is shaking.  Now I am getting a little bit nervous. 
Mom:  "Emma, what happened."
Emma:  This boy said "Hey you, come here."  Riley wasn't home."
Mom:  "What boy?"
Emma:  "I don't know, A black boy"
Mom:  "Honey, did he do something to you?"
Emma:  "He just kept saying "Hey you come here."
Mom:  "Where were you?"
Emma:  "By Riley's house.  She wasn't home the boy asked me to come here, I just keep riding my bike fast and kept going.  He got in the car with his friend and then the other boy drove away."
This is where I am getting confused.  I am thinking a boy.  So I ask if it was a teenager.  She said no.  I said were they as old as me.  She then says yes.  I now am getting nervous.   I find out that there was 3 African American men, two out on the street the other in the white van driving.  I told her we would have to call the police and this in when the tears start and the panic boils over.  She doesn't want to get in trouble.  She is worried that if they didn't do anything wrong she would get in trouble or they would.  I had a hard time talking her into it but knew I had to.  Finally she was okay with it.  We called the police and they were great.  They were here in 5 minutes and he was very careful with Emma.  Then my neighbors actually saw the van and got the license plate number.  This is really a scary thing for me.  Even worse though is that my daughter is now just a little less innocent then she was the day before.  I am glad that Emma was smart and just took off.  She is a bit shy and I think this played in her favor.  The thing that worries me is that JJ is very social, especially with adults.  I could see him talking to the person and not realizing he was in danger.  I hope having this happen, JJ will understand what Emma did the right thing and hopefully now that we have talked about it he will understand better.  

I hope if you read this you will talk to your kids about Stranger Danger.  Practice what to do if they have something like this happen.  We live in a very safe neighborhood.  Please talk to your kids.  I would hate for anything to happen to any of our children.  The fear that was in Emma when she got home was so sad.  I just can't help but think how much worse it could have been if she had talked to them.  Hug your kids tonight. 

Right through the Lip

This poor little lady has been having a mess of accidents lately.

She seems to know just how to hit her face to put her teeth right through her lip.  It is funny because when it was JJ or Emma I would have called my parents to ask them if they needed stitches.  Now, I just apply pressure and clean them up.  The difference between 1st time mom and a beat down worn out old mom.  In the last two weeks she has jumped off a couch and put her teeth through her lip, and earlier this week she jumped off the bed and did the same, only this time all the way through.(Picture above) and yesterday she shut the toilet lid and hit her nose.  Blood came pouring out of both sides of her nose.  She does fine until she sees the blood.  She starts to freak out when she sees it.  I was able to  hurry and get to it before it started to pour.  I really thought she was going to be okay until she saw the toilet paper in the garbage.  She lost it all over again.  Poor little lady.  I think it is going to be a long road.  She doesn't seem to get that she is only this little and everything is that big.  

Elsie is {F}abulous.

I was getting ready for the day and as usual Elsie goes into my closet to pick out what she wants me to wear.  Here is the converation that follows.

Elsie:  "Mom, wear this." (holding up a skirt)
Mom:  "Not today sweetie." as I grab my jeans.
Elsie:  In a very confused voice "Mom, why you always wear dads clothes."

Poor girls.  She is so pretty, girly, dainty, feminine, an all around princess.  I am sure everyday that I put on just another pair of jeans it kills her.  She won't wear pants.  She won't even let me put them on her.  She is always wearing a dress, or skirt and flashing some kind of accessory.  I just love my little girly girl.