Today is one of those days that we have waited for forever and yet we aren't ready for it. We arrived at the hospital and it felt like forever for them to get Ellie back.
She started to get hungry. I couldn't blame her because it was pushing one o'clock. She also started to get really scared. It was pretty heartbreaking. She ended up getting so worked up that I had to go to the OR with her. That was a pretty traumatic situation not only for Ellie but for me as well.
Ellie was hysterical and she cried and sobbed. I put the laughing gas over her mouth and held her until her body went limp. It was crazy because I didn't know this but the body can almost have a seizure like reaction to anesthesia. Only seconds after her body went limp her arm twisted up behind her and her body went ridged. They immediately ushered me out. The nurse praised me for being so brave. She said most mom cry during this and I did awesome. I told her that the tears were on their way and she said they were well deserved. I made eye contact with Jeron and the flood gates opened. Once I got my emotions in check we headed to the cafeteria to wait out the two and a half hour surgery. When the doctor finally came back out you could tell this was a "fun" surgery for him. He was almost giddy in the most professional way possible. He will probably go home and write a journal about this. When I went to recovery she was in so much pain. I felt so bad for her. They really had to do a lot more work then they had expected. She did really well and we were able to go home quickly.
Her hand will hurt for a long time to come. I hope that this is what was best. I truly feel this it is, even though it will be a hard road. I don't think most people understand just how big of a deal this was for this tough little cookie.
On our way home. She did amazing.
We are finally home and ready for what is ahead. Love this girl of mine.
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