Contractions...

I have been so nervous this pregnancy.

Last time I was preggo I started having contractions at 28 weeks.

At 30 weeks I was put on bed rest.

NO FUN

I was told that most likely if I had another baby bed rest was inevitable. 

So, here I am preggers with that next baby, 24 weeks and...

well

contractions have started.

I am getting nervous about it.

Yesterday, they were the take your breath away kind.

I don't want to go on bed rest.

It killed my body and was incredibly boring. 

Boring in a way that depressed me...bad.

It sent my whole world into complete chaos. 

I still to this day haven't picked up where I left off before bed rest.

 

My doctor told me I know what to do.

I know what to do but I don't want to do it.

But I also don't want to spend one day in the NICU 

because that is a worse hell than bed rest.

 

So today I am taking it easy

crossing my fingers my contractions decide to calm down

and tell this little princess that she wants to stay inside me where she is safe and warm.

and hopefully my other little princess will understand why the TV is babysitting her.

{SIGH}